Talk:Accelerator/@comment-24098614-20140803025709/@comment-5230978-20140807170754

and this whole stuff only worked because toaru is build in a 'happy'-world, in real life, even a simple murderer can sometimes not undo his sins, the amount of disbelief was ok to some extent, but i cant stand it after NT10 anymore, it is to ridiculous....

Sorry, but what are you talking about? Neither Accel nor Othinus have finished making up for their sins and they probably will never be able to.

i had my 'speculation' because i tried to explain accels unlogical behavior in his last attack, since, if you are scared you will never go into the reason for your fear,

That's wrong. Do you really believe there is only one type of fear and that everyone react the same way before that? The most common example of reaction before a fearsome and dangerous being is to run, which is generally done when there is no other option to survive or when the fear is too great. Then there are those who are utterly paralyzed by fear, whether they have a chance to survive or not (generally the latter). And there are even those who fight what they fear, not out of courage, but because they are so terrified that they want to deleted what is scaring and endangering them, even if they know it won't work and even if they have more rational options to handle the situation. This is the case of Accel. That must have been the first time he felt that kind of fear as he never tasted defeat and (seemingly) physical pain before, and like every strong emotions people feel for the first time, it must have had an intenisty greater than it normally would have. He wanted to get rid of the origin of his fear (Touma) so much that even if his reason told him he had the act calmly his fear of pain instictively made him feel it would have endagered him. Fear is something that can easily rob you of your reason and logic. Another proof of this is that Accel was able to considered only two methods to kill Touma (the wind and blood flow reversal) despite having more and safer than these. It's fear (and according to Railgun manga, probably even a bit of his pride as strongest) that drove Accel's last attack, and it's proved both by the Index novel and Railgun manga.

and that he did it was because of him wanting to lose (After understanding his actions) subconsciously (at least like this Illusion more ;-p )

It's a speculation based on nothing as there is no hint about it in the series. Both novel and manga showed Accel's will to kill both Touma and the Sisters (e.g. from vol 5: "Right now, no sugar-coated words were going to convert him into a good guy. That had already been proven in the fight at the depot. At that moment, the Sisters who had been saved by the Level 0 had already understood that they should refuse to sacrifice themselves for the experiment, but Accelerator continued to insist on killing them. That was a cold, hard fact that wouldn’t change") and the orignal material always takes precedence over speculation, especially when the original material is that explicit. For the third time, Accel remembered his rinigla goal and understood what he did was wrong after his last attack, just before being punched by Touma. If he really losed his will to fight, it was after that, which would make sense as we know Accel can take much more punches than those received by Touma.